currently, beedani is on the brink of a suicidal explosion. so it was vital for me to make this blog. yes, VITAL.
im about to get really personal really quick. i have suffered from depression since i was 5 and at 22 1/2 i still havent gotten a grip on things. i have previously made two blogs that failed miserably , but this one have a stronger grip on me that makes me feel that it will go better this time.
it was necessary for me to make this blog not only for the fact that i have to empty out the many ideas and things that ive been having the shakes to share, but to hopefully be a last resort for me to have an outlet that forces me not to focus on the negativity that im so used to.
i have big plans this year that i didnt have , lets say.. about a weekend ago. yes, honestly im that empty on the inside despite the pic of myself as a happy afro-american/afro-brazilian in wanna be one-time lolita makeup . i want to create 3 books this year, do something epic that helps a whole variety of people, and put myself in a better place of mind.
as time go by i will deflower myself to you all with a batchful of positive stardust.
until next time.
beijos,
beedanni
honeyandmalai 